Renewal Rationale

Life’s filled with alterations,

It’s a source of inspiration,

To move ahead to the next phase,

And forget the paths you’ve taken.

Time posed this challenge,

To keep moving forward,

It doesn’t mean giving up,

It only means letting go.

Some dreams are not for you,

It takes several reflections,

The highest minds take action,

The average just think them through.

Do I consider myself an excellent thinker?

Far from it! It took me months to realize.

And even a year to take action,

Let this be my moving force-

An impetus for growth.

Redeemer Comes

A visiting speaker came to preach today, while he’s talking to the congregation, I scribbled this [call it whatever you want..]:
If God is sovereign,
why is it a choice to follow him?
IF he’s superior,
Is not he supposed to be our example?
IF he speaks, won’t we listen?
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Legs folded,
arms embracing them,
lock me in a cellar,
never let me go,
why not seal me and not let me depart?
Without your presence,
I’m far from at ease,
How did I fall deaf,mute and immobile?
None of my actions showed obedience,
what verdict I deserve…?
I said “freedom”!
Yet I’m now imprisoned,
marked,stained, almost ruined.
How else can I escape?
RESCUE – I thought – has come.
Today’s WORD pierced my heart,
What future awaits a burdened soul?
Where else can it run into?
NONE… ’seems like all walls were shaken.
I’m devoured by sin and destruction’s certain.
REBUILDING, cry me!
RESTORATION, I beg…
REDEMPTION, I plead…
ARE THESE MERELY WISHES?
KEEP Me.
I’m tired of constant deception.

Personality Test Results

“I am somewhat less outgoing than the average female is. Most females like to keep themselves busy with continuous interaction, conversations, and the company of others. I also enjoy these things, but having some time on my own is equally important to me.
I am similar to the average female in my level of emotionality- sensitive to my feelings and moods, but not oversensitive.”

This Personality Test result popped in my mail as I checked it tonight. It’s agreeable and I can sense that there is a safe correlation with my real self. I couldn’t get the complete result though, I need to pay If I want to get more information.

In another personality tests I found online, I got this result:

“I derive self worth from external success. I am highly skilled at adapting in order to gain accolades. This comes at the price of having personal identity. I often lose sight of (or deprioritize) my own feelings to achieve goals.”

I think for those people who have known me for more than five years would agree to these results. Never thought personality test results would be fun! This is actually the fondest test I’ve ever taken!^^

Chess Notes

Nothing’s wrong about yearning for security, but making all decisions solely out of it is simply futile.

Playing chess as early as seven taught me to castle my king before attempting any attack. I won most of my games then by HIDING. I learned that the best way to avoid checkmates is to hide well. My elementary coach honed my skill in hiding and waiting when he introduced a traditional line of opening called Pirc Defense. He said Kasparov lost in a game because of it. I’ve known Kasparov as a great risk-taker, so I concluded: “evade risks, safety first.”

No matter how dire, and rigid my training was in HIDING- I still lose whenever I meet aggressive players. You cannot always win by defense. The element of fun and excitement is gone when all you think of is protecting your KING or other major pieces. You’ll never enjoy the game when all you do is worry about your contender’s next attack.

When I met the Rivas (Brothers and sister who are experts at gambits!), the youngest told me: “Rarely do players win by a single strategy, you don’t win by simply waiting, hiding nor chasing.” He even adds, “PIRC defense is a coward’s opening,modify it a bit or try a variety of openings and choose which suits your overall gameplan.”

PERHAPS, He’s right.

hmmmm.. Life, like chess, is full of traps and zaps, so know when to hide, chase, wait, bait and mate(?)… Know also that it takes several trial games to master the right mix of these actions.

C is For…

Every time I enter an English classroom, I’m prompted to introduce myself using my name’s initials. Well, I should be thankful to have a word-friendly initial so I could easily think of adjectives to describe me.

Perhaps we can apply the same mode of description to each experience we have- be it gloomy or gay, exciting or bland, or lesson we need to learn.. Well, let’s start the game:

C if FOR…

Comfort (unexpected) from friends who care, who truly care!

Chance given by superiors, by colleagues, by co-workers, by friends, by sisters, by people I’ve hurt, by every one I wronged.

Charity from love ones – either friends, relatives and non-relatives (?).

Chastisement from the ONE who sees everything and who judges knowingly.

Character which I need to imprint into my soul.

Crap I need to throw or vomit… or by any means, get rid of.

Carelessness I have to completely eliminate… in words, and in deeds.

Clarity in expressing my views and wants to avoid misinterpretations.

Calmness and Composure as my shield to unsettling news, circumstances even tragedies.

Curiosity in things that will help me improve immensely.

Critical-thinking for decision-making.

Conciseness in writing… as well as speaking.

Now I failed to comply to my last want- to be concise. It’s hard to say things in condensed form esp. if you’re proving how awesome the Letter C is. hehe.. If you’ve got a name with a “C” as initial, REJOICE and welcome to an Adjective-rich initial club..

hehe… here I go again, lengthy as always.

GTG.. office is waiting.