There should be a good reason I am posting a blog this morning. I couldn’t go to bed, I was asleep for less than two hours, but I’m not craving for longer sleep.
Have you ever asked yourself, what makes life worth living? This is an important question; a very crucial one. Life, generally, is meaningless to me. What adds meaning to it is the purpose it exists. Some of my friends lived, and are living a meaningful existence when they started loving and when they learned loving someone.
This, I believe, is meaningless. I have been trying to continually convince myself that I loved someone, that HE is a special one, that HE is my ultimate concern. This mental conditioning, I believe, is pointless. Loving someone based on intense interest and strong attraction (whether physical, intellectual, moral, spiritual, even emotional) is rather a tedious task. I have found my PEACE, a long time ago, but I let go of it. JUST to try something NEW, something different, something terribly exciting…or so I thought.
NOW, I am but a lost sheep -an empty person. Finding comfort in the presence of people: who never satisfy who are rather busy with their own affairs, with their own trials, with their own pains, with their own plans, with their own aspirations, with their own interests. I have searched for the greener grass but what I found was a barren land -UNFRUITFUL, FUTILE.
It is a painful yet an enlightening event. When I thought I lost everyone’s trust…someone from my used to be rosy past, persistently persuades me that I can always return to my old self – the better one.
Now, it is hard to be found out. GOD was seeking for HIS lost sheep and I have made a decision not to hide, this is the very least I could do. I will not hide from YOU so I can be found. Please SEARCH me. Don’t get tired of me. This might be too much for me to ask but LOVE me the same way as before.
